I am scared that I might gonna lose it all,
Couldn’t talk to you, couldn’t face the world, couldn’t bare enough, I
am broken down and weary,
I am exhausted, I feel emptyness,
I am not present, I am ghost of all my woes,
I am a figment of a psyche, I am stuck on all these moments,
I see nowhere, I see nevermore and less
I don’t know if I am enough
in this senseless everyday,
repetition of my very own death.
All these voices in my head,
I am collapsing by the bathroom mirror
fragmenting every sense of my self,
And I realize
I could have seen me
the way I am
in all its rawness, and this
Restlessness in everything,
the death instinct pulling strings,
the mechanistic tendency of self-defeat;
and I don’t know what it could be,
the thing ahead of every intention,
perversions of a will to live.
And I don’t know,
I don’t know,
and I don’t know,
I don’t know.
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The record so nice, I bought it twice. Just sent one as a gift to a friend.
This record is stunning. Poignant and powerful, sometimes heartbreaking. The artwork is gorgeous too. firecat666
Sparkling synthpop with an emphasis on high-wattage chords and the kind of melodies that burrow themselves deep in the brain. Bandcamp New & Notable Dec 1, 2023